When baby G was just a few months old, I wrote a post on my other blog. It went like this.
Paranoia was not a part of me before my son arrived. Now, Im totally paranoid about a few things.
1) While he sleeps in his cradle and I on the bed, I follow his every breath. (some infants have noisy breathing till they are 6 months). If he turns in his sleep, I immediately lose sleep. Padhu wakes up with that jerk I give every time I get up to check on him.
2) When I watch a movie on my laptop, I wear one earphone only. Just in case baby G makes a noise, u know.
3) He sleeps for three hours after his bath. I insist on being there in the same room, or someone else if I'm stepping out for a bath.
4) I don't let him cry much. When he cries, I feel like the whole world's weight is on my shoulders. When he stops, I feel like taking rest. phew!
5) On those days that his blue fleece blanket is in the laundry, I think he doesn't sleep well. Even though he looks normal.
6) I keep thinking about schools he will join in a lot. Yes, now itself.
I'm going to need a lot of help. *shakes head in dismissal while staring into the mirror. wait, he just moved in his cradle*
I decide to make a comparison or addition now...
1) I'm usually browsing or blogging but in the same room when he is asleep.
2) I still do wear only one earphone.
3) He doesn't sleep as much as he used to.. But I'm always there.
4) These days he cries for everything. If his water sipper is far from reach, if he cannot open a box, if his cousin took his toy. His way of getting attention is a loud cry, no tears attached.
5) His fleece blanket is not big enough for him now. He has his crotchet blanket now. His security toy is a teddy or a rabbit. His mood, his choice.
6) I have decided on a play school. But I might change my mind if another good one comes to my notice.
Motherhood makes anyone paranoid. I think the easier we let them free to do what they want, the more comfortable they will be. Hoping to be a not so strict, not so uptight mommy.
Paranoia was not a part of me before my son arrived. Now, Im totally paranoid about a few things.
1) While he sleeps in his cradle and I on the bed, I follow his every breath. (some infants have noisy breathing till they are 6 months). If he turns in his sleep, I immediately lose sleep. Padhu wakes up with that jerk I give every time I get up to check on him.
2) When I watch a movie on my laptop, I wear one earphone only. Just in case baby G makes a noise, u know.
3) He sleeps for three hours after his bath. I insist on being there in the same room, or someone else if I'm stepping out for a bath.
4) I don't let him cry much. When he cries, I feel like the whole world's weight is on my shoulders. When he stops, I feel like taking rest. phew!
5) On those days that his blue fleece blanket is in the laundry, I think he doesn't sleep well. Even though he looks normal.
6) I keep thinking about schools he will join in a lot. Yes, now itself.
I'm going to need a lot of help. *shakes head in dismissal while staring into the mirror. wait, he just moved in his cradle*
I decide to make a comparison or addition now...
1) I'm usually browsing or blogging but in the same room when he is asleep.
2) I still do wear only one earphone.
3) He doesn't sleep as much as he used to.. But I'm always there.
4) These days he cries for everything. If his water sipper is far from reach, if he cannot open a box, if his cousin took his toy. His way of getting attention is a loud cry, no tears attached.
5) His fleece blanket is not big enough for him now. He has his crotchet blanket now. His security toy is a teddy or a rabbit. His mood, his choice.
6) I have decided on a play school. But I might change my mind if another good one comes to my notice.
Motherhood makes anyone paranoid. I think the easier we let them free to do what they want, the more comfortable they will be. Hoping to be a not so strict, not so uptight mommy.
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